The heart wants what it wants.

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Niels

My name is Niels and I am a 32 year old Trans man (FtM) from Holland. Last year, on a trip to Barcelona I fell for a beautiful woman named Sandra.

She has lived more lives in her 38 years on this earth than one could imagine. (Too much to get into right now, she’s originally from Paraguay, there is already a book about it) Anyway, in non of those different chapters of her life did she ever truly fall in love with someone. I am proud to be the one who can show her this side to life finally.

This sounds like a beautiful queer love story: trans boy meets cis girl, they fall in love, travel back and forth between Spain and Holland and live happily ever after.This is all true except for that last bit, because this modern fairytale will end in tragedy. You see, her health is not good. She has MS and on top of that is now battling breast cancer.

I know I am not destined to have a long life with her, I know I will outlive her, I know it will hurt like hell, but she is the most caring, genuine and loving soul I have met. She is stronger than I imagined anyone could be, yet is deeply in touch with her humanity.

Our big love story is not one of big happy moments, it is one of celebrating all the many little ones that make life worth living. Worth fighting for.Her only dream for this life is to travel, to see the world. That is why I’ve entered our story here, because I’d like to show her what it is like to be celebrated simply for who she is, instead of being shamed and demeaned for it. And if that celebration takes place on the other side of the planet: all the better!

My name is Niels and I am a 32 year old Trans man (FtM) from Holland. Last year, on a trip to Barcelona I fell for a beautiful woman named Sandra.

She has lived more lives in her 38 years on this earth than one could imagine. (Too much to get into right now, she’s originally from Paraguay, there is already a book about it) Anyway, in non of those different chapters of her life did she ever truly fall in love with someone. I am proud to be the one who can show her this side to life finally.

This sounds like a beautiful queer love story: trans boy meets cis girl, they fall in love, travel back and forth between Spain and Holland and live happily ever after.This is all true except for that last bit, because this modern fairytale will end in tragedy. You see, her health is not good. She has MS and on top of that is now battling breast cancer.

I know I am not destined to have a long life with her, I know I will outlive her, I know it will hurt like hell, but she is the most caring, genuine and loving soul I have met. She is stronger than I imagined anyone could be, yet is deeply in touch with her humanity.

Our big love story is not one of big happy moments, it is one of celebrating all the many little ones that make life worth living. Worth fighting for.Her only dream for this life is to travel, to see the world. That is why I’ve entered our story here, because I’d like to show her what it is like to be celebrated simply for who she is, instead of being shamed and demeaned for it. And if that celebration takes place on the other side of the planet: all the better!

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